Lost but not forgotten

This is an older poem

You were born, September 24th, 2000,  
6lb 14oz  
You were the most beautiful little  
boy that I had ever seen  
Holding you in my arms completed me,  
and my heart beat because of you  

38 days was the time-span that I had you,  
such a short time, I nearly lost my mind  
A monster got his hands on you and beat  
and broke your body, I call him a monster,  
you call him daddy  
I am so sorry my sweet boy that mommy had  
to work and could not protect you, my world  
fell apart when I was told, you had been  
murdered  
A razor ran across my wrist the day of your  
funeral  
I was your mommy and should have kept you safe  

15 years have now past and not a day has gone  
by when I haven't wondered what your voice  
would have sounded like  
Would you have been sweet and nice, I often find  
myself thinking of your beautiful blue eyes and  
the way you smelled  
How you loved to be rocked, and the sound of  
music, you seemed to enjoy so well

Now that you are an angel, do you remember the  
pain that you went thru and do you blame mommy  
for not having been there for you  
So many tears have I shed for you, wishing that  
you were in my arms for just one more moment  
My heart aches and breaks my angel and I know that  
you're gone but trust me when I say that, "You're  
loved and never forgotten,"