Close to the Bone

If you follow my stories here then you've read a little about my girl Gina,  but I feel like she hasn't been properly introduced,  or been given  the attention she deserves.  Her little brother Kyle is one of my closest homies; the first time I met Gina was about a year and a half ago when me and my former homeboy Jeremy went over to Kyle and Ginas mom's house to buy a bag of crystal off of kyle.

She answered the door when we knocked,  "kyles in there"  she said pointing to a door on our left,  and returning to her spot on the couch.  I didn't give her a second thought after that.  Jeremy and I got our dope,  made small talk with Kyle and split.

I didn't realize that she was Gina Coates,  a girl I'd been hearing about ever since I first moved here,  with a reputation for being easy,  as well as for her on going feud with her sister,  which was basically them both fuckin whoever the other was involved with. The joke was if you hooked up with Gina then you also had to fuck her sister Trina.

The next time I saw her I was leaving my probation officers office and ran into her and Jeremy,  who was on his way for his first appointment with his PO.  He'd just started using needles,  already skinny to begin with,  he looked like a cancer victim.

A few months later I was talking to a coworker in front of his house and I saw Jeremy running down the street after a very pissed off looking Gina.  I started busting his balls and asked how he made her that mad.  

"She thinks I fucked Trina" he said exasperated lyrics.  
"you probably fuckin did" I replied with a chuckle, "you should put down the needle and eat a fuckin cheeseburger dude you look like shit"  He said something under his breath and told me he had to go catch her.

As it turned out I was right,  he had been fuckin her sister Trina, apparently Gina kicked him out once and he went crazy tryin to slit his throat and shit.  While they were split she made it very obvious that she had Bobby,  Trina's baby daddy staying at her place.

The case I was on bond for was dismissed and I wasn't on supervision  anymore and I could smoke weed again,  so I started hanging out with Jeremy again.  Kyle had just got out and was waiting for his sentencing,  and needed to find a job before court.  

I got kyle a job and convinced my boss to hire Jeremy for the third time,  on the condition that if he fucked up he was done.  Things went ok till I was at Ginas house getting stoned with Jeremy before he had to go to work.  I noticed his arms were covered in track marks and told him
"I don't care what u do but if you're gonna be using yourself as a pin cushion either get some tattoos to hide that shit or wear longsleeves"

He got all sad like a kid who's dad had just ripped his ass,  and started pouting,  but he put on a long sleeve shirt before leaving for work.  Shortly after that I was on my way to get some weed from him after work when Kyle called to tell me that Jeremy was in jail.

I was already headed towards Ginas and was only a block or so away so I decided to stop by and see what happened.  I told Gina that I wasn't going to be able to save his job,  but that I knew she had five kids and he'd been the only one working,  and I'd see if I could get her a job so they wouldn't lose that income.

That night was the first time I ever paid much attention to Gina,  she had on a pair of cutoffs and a tank top,  and I found myself staring at her.  I was in a relationship at the time,  but my mind kept tormenting me with thoughts of her naked flesh and my hands hungrily exploring her body.

I gave her my number "in case she needed me to come back and evict the weirdo"  that Jeremy had brought home. I laid awake that night still fantasizing about Gina.

Jeremy got  out a few weeks later and came by to give me his uniforms and apologize.  He thanked me for keeping an eye out on her while he was locked up and gave me a hug.  I remember thinking that there was something fake about his gratitude,  and that I sensed hostility in his embrace.

The next day someone smashed out the back window of my car, and my gut told me Jeremy had something to do with it.  I confronted him about it when I saw him out with Gina and the kids a few days later.  He denied it,  but the fear in his eyes gave him away.

I stopped fuckin with him after that,  and didn't speak to him until a few months later while I was getting high with Trina after kyle got locked up,  and Trina mentioned Jeremy leaving welts on Ginas two year old from whipping him with a belt.

Trina had to go by there place to try and jump start Ginas van,  so i rose with her.  Jeremy tensed nervously when he saw me get out of Trina bronco.  I walked up and slapped his cheek,  "if I hear about you taking a belt to that boy again I'm gonna come over here,  take off my belt,  bend u over my knee and spank you like the little bitch you are".

He angrily mumbled something as I walked away.  Then I turned to Gina "what the fuck you letting that punk bitch beat your kid with a belt for"
"if he's hitting you just tell me and I'll get rid of him for you".

Gina looked down in shame and quietly said something like "he's never hit me"  and "I don't think he's ever used a belt on the kids".  Then I asked her why she was fuckin with a punk like him,  and she replied with "even the dog catcher told me I could do better then him".

I laughed,  "all you'd have to do is find a guy who's nuts have dropped,  and you'd already be doing better then that piece of shit".  Jeremy said nothing,  just stood silently with an angry expression on his face like a child who'd just been scolded.

A few months later Jeremy got locked up again,  and I ran into Gina when I went to meet kyles girl Michaela at the park.  I made up my mind,  I was gonna smash Gina while Jeremy was in jail,  and when he got out I would tell him all about it.

After a day or two of casual flirting,  I got my chance while hanging out with Gina watching movies.  I spent the night with her that night,  something I normally don't do if a chick's just a booty call.  Much to my surprise I realized that I looked forward to seeing her,  and that I didn't like when I had to leave her.  

Her place was destroyed from Jeremy throwing tantrums,  and infested with fleas from the dogs he'd brought home and chained in the front yard, and after a few days I told her that she was gonna bring the kids and stay at my place till we could get her place bug bombed.  

Not long after we started talking,  while laying in bed with her i told her how fucked up my head was because of the way I had started to feel about her.  Much to my surprise she looked at me and said "I love you"  and without hesitation I said it back to her.

The only downside is that I have a hard time trusting her because of shit she's told me,  as well as all I've heard about her in the last two years.  I've got trust issues like a Mutha Fucker to start with,  and she knows that I don't trust easily,  and that I don't fully trust her yet.  

I can tell it hurts her,  but she says she understands why I've got my guard up. I usually don't worry about getting hurt cuz I don't let anyone close enough to hurt me,  but she managed to slip past and get under my skin,  and I could do nothing to stop her.

I know that if she were to pull any of the shit she pulled on Jeremy or some of the others she's been with it'd be bad.  Id probably confront her first and make her lure him to me.  His kneecaps would be my first target,  I'd take em out with an axe handle. And God help him if she showed feelings for him,  because I'd break every bone in his body while she watched.  

Honestly I'd probably end up killing the dude.  She might get smacked around a bit,  but I don't think I could bring myself to hurt her seriously,  if at all honestly.  

Usually I figure if a bitch gonna fuck around then she ain't worth trippin on,  I don't get jealous very often,  but with Gina the thought of her screwing around makes me seethe with rage.  I think its because she's close enough to me that she could hurt me,  and I couldn't stop her from stealing my heart,  even with my walls and my trust issues.