Gram

I love you, I miss you
I want to hug and kiss you
All the things to you that I've done wrong
Want to say I'm sorry but now you're gone
When you passed I was already locked up
So when I found out it completely messed me up
I have to live with my mistake for the rest of my life
I have to live with the guilt and the strife
The only way I can think of to make it up to you is to live my life right
But I know it's going to be a constant fight
A fight against pain or pleasure
It's something you really cannot measure
It's not pleasure I'm after, just the absence of pain
My feelings I felt the need to tame
So I hope you're up there watching over me
And I pray everyday that you've forgiven me
So this is it Grandma, my promise to you
Try to stay clean and sober, live my life right
I don't know what else, so that's all I can do