feeling of nothing

this life of mine I just wish away,
and the feeling of nothing I feel every day,
im so lonely and sad Im numb inside,
so ashamed of my self I stay in and hide,
some times I forget when im out having fun,
then im filled up with guilt for what iv just done,
theres a stranger inside me its causing this pain,
what do you want please tell me your name,
just let me go I beg to be free,
your killing me slowly by making a monster of me,
I hate to go out cant stand to be seen,
I like when my bedrooms the only place iv been,
im dependent on beer just to feel good,
something a person never should,
has life gets darker I grow closer to death,
and il be happy when I breath my final breath,
stranger stranger who are you,
I never deserved all this pain you put me through?....