negative body image

were's that happy girl the one I used to be,
the one that felt so strong before a stranger took over me,
it changed me for the worst and filled me up with hate,
so the sight of my own body always left me in a state,
most days I wake up sad just because im here,
its not a life worth living always full of fear,
each calorie is added up I no just what I need,
2,000 or above another day im full of greed,
please just hold me tight in your arms so I feel close,
tell me I look fine in this body that looks so grose,
calm my aching heart that lays beneath my chest,
soothe the pain just while i sleep so finally i can rest,
till tomorrow I stand the mirror while tears stream down my face,
another day im forced to fight a life thats gone to waste,
me and my inner voices we face the world alone,
has I struggle with thee worst pain that I have ever known.