My Dear

My Dear,
You'll never really know...
How hard it was to let you go.
Ocean eyes I won't forget.
So much pain,despair,regret.
Like a dagger stabbing my heart.
Like our love, I've fallen apart.
Mistakes I've made.
Memories I wish would fade.
A love that soon turned to hate.
A piercing pain,
That never goes away.
A fractured soul,
and broken heart.
Here we are, miles apart.
To think of you,
brings me pain.
Stops the blood in my veins.
I feel the pain,
in the back of my throat.
I feel the feelings,
Hurts all I'm gaining.
Regret stabs my heart like a sharpened dagger.
Memories play in my head like a love novel.
A love novel, with a tragic ending, but such a beautiful beginning.
Maybe if I rip out my heart,
I'll get past this old ghost.
You,my dear, were my very best.
You, my dear, I will never forget.
You walked in my life,
with your heart in your hands.
You gave me your heart,
in  glass jar.
I thought I was the one who was foolishly in love, I was.
But you were the one vulnerable to love.
You were the one sacrificing what you had.
I was the one who tore you apart.
I became what I feared most.
I did what hurt me most.
I caused what I feel everyday.
You were the one, who left our love, with a bruised soul and broken heart.
I came out with a broken passion and busted love.
I wrapped us in chain and took us to the bottom of the sea.
Only to drowned in each others arms.
I remain with water in my lungs that make it hard to breathe.
It often finds its way to my eyes, only to leak.
My dear... I'm broken.
If only you could see.
I'm broken... I hope you're doing better than me.