Wish to forget

I can do nothing but sit here trying to forget
Forget all the pain you caused me...
I found my true love,
Yet I'm still drawn to you.
My thoughts surround me.
Beginning to drage me back to the past.
I try to forget but I can't.
I can only smoke a cigarette,
Wishing I could be drunk.
Thinking it will help me forget,
I love him but I'm always finding myself thinking of you.
On the inside I'm screaming,
Just to forget and move on.
But on the outside....
I fake the biggest smile.
Confused and shaking all the time,
Just waiting....
Waiting for the day I can finally forget....
To be happy once again...