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These Post Pubescent Lies

Lighter, papers, walk on out
It doesn't take a genius to see where it's lead
Inhale, breath out
Same old fucking thing
Eyes red from the poison that my mind eggs on
Am I sane? Who cares?
You don't need a clear head!
My blackened veins dictate a life that floats by
Why should I live your way
I'm perfectly content with this numbing inside
So tell yourself again
So those same old lies
"I don't need family"
And "I don't need friends"
Just block out all the thoughts
And the shame that comes with them
I bet you didn't think I'd take it this far
From a happy little kid
Wide eyes and beautiful heart
To this shattered rotting shell that lives in never ending lies
A beggar and a thief
Just like the ones I condemned
A shadow of a man
But still I put on this facade
Hoping no-one notices
But still nobody's fooled
I still remember sitting in that cozy little crowd
Just trying to fit in
And make their laughter disappear
Feeling as if their might be hope
Unable to hold back a smile
Then half a decade passes
And that moment never returns
Denial is all that's left behind
And it's replaced the humanity