note to self

mediocrity is the dilution of a substance from itself by the mediation of an alien element
Failure isn't losing, its mediocrity as an end and not a means
i am the unbroken unmitigated string of a development toward failure
the water is the element of dilution
the impurity is the expression of myself while I'm underwater
submerged in the element i remain impure
i am not me, but only the shade of me
the unclarity in the water
the cloud behind glass.
I am the opposite of what i seem because clouds are made of water
so, i am the dilution of the sky
the rainmaker
the rainbow maker
the sun blocker
the shade giver
i am me and mediocrity
the sky is not mediocre, but it is blue
but the triteness of calling the sky depressed because of the accident of words only proves that I am a cloud in a glass of water
i am all that is not togetherness
i live in the fog i have created
and i wonder if the bits of me that block the light look back at me and think the same thing