SICKNESS WITHIN

Always afraid to fail.
                      to succeed
                      to be afraid
                      to be along
Always afraid of hurting my own
                      of loving those who do not love me
Always seem to fall flat on my face
                      to succeed to fail
Always feel stupid
                   worthless
                    little
When success is in the circle
Always seem to fuck it  up.

Always afraid to be afraid
Never thought it was possible to always be this way
Never afraid to not be afraid

Always afraid to be along
I'm along anyway
               when I sleep
                           eat
                           and even when I'm making love
To think, I should be used to this
But the truth is I'm not\
Wont bring myself to see that I'm along and always will be.

Afraid of hurting my own
                          my kids
                          my self
                          my heart
But always find a way to in the long run.

Always afraid of doing something great
                          letting go completely
                          moving on
                          starting over

Always thinking no love for me.
            tired of being afraid
                     of figuring it out
                         thinking
                         trying
                         being tired

One day I'll wake up
                   step up
                   discover my worth
                   navigate my inner strength
And that will be the day
I set myself  FREE