Do you know?

Do you know how much
it hurts when you hit me?
I act as if everything is okay, that it doesnt
hurt
But my dear
it does
alot
I refuse to let tear fall down
my face
I'm stuck in this
relationship
forced to stay
never to leave
I try to run but
you grab me
hit
then shove me
in a room
slam the door
lock it
never to return
I grab my razor
and try to take
myself to a better
place
holding it to my wrist
pressing down
slice my wrist
letting a scream
allowing tears
to flow down
my beat up
face