I'm sorry, love

I cant stop loving you, and I admit, I actually tried
Because you did deserve a better man after all the times youve cried
You loved me and you truly trusted me with your heart
And to begin to say how sorry I am, I wouldnt know where to start
I thought about you so much in the years youve been away
I always asked myself, what if I didnt hurt you, would we be together today
We'll never know bc unfortunately I did
But Im proud to say Im a man now, no longer a kid
All the time, I think about how you left without speaking
I think about what we couldve been if I did away with the sneaking.
I think about the way we laugh without a reason why
I think about how you used to get what you wanted from me with a fake cry
I think about how special you are
I think about how you'll always be my love no matter how far
I think about your happiness and the smile I put on your face
I think about your heart and if I still have a place
I think about if its possible that I can regain your trust
But most of all I think about if I'll ever again be able to say "us"