Not Anymore

 “I just don’t love you anymore”
That’s what you said
I heard an audible crack
Tightness in my chest
Like a cardiac arrest
A physical palpable pain
Like nothing I’d felt before
My heart obviously breaking
Floods of tears followed
Uncontrollable shakes invaded me
Then sobbing like a child
As I begged you not to go
Watching you walk away
Carrying two suitcases

I slept like a log that night
No dreams or nightmares
The best sleep I’d had in years
I awoke abruptly
And realised in a moment of clarity
‘I didn’t love you anymore either’
We had just been plodding
Living in passive acceptance
Of what was our life’s lot
Marching a slow death march
Our love unceremonially buried
Throw some dirt on it
Like it never existed
It did, but not anymore