thank placebo

It was the consequences
and complications

she asked me
if I took my meds
darlin'
I've been forgetting
my name
before the people in this town
saw who I could be

this body screams for soul
and I'm so ashamed
and I'm so condescending

beat me till the voices
fade away
leave indifference
lame on my hips
it's not a secret
twenty eight thousand seconds
longer and my eyes
will dilute
a little deeper

I'm not afraid of drowning
just the hollow boundaries
of how far hands
are willing to pull
me back up
or the light
they'll never reach
deep enough
to hear flickering
in the ever blinding waves
of my retinas

this body is a lie
defeated and so alive
please don't ask

I'm not afraid to be sober
I'm over a different time
it's all the hope
I can't stomach to pretend
I'd die without
and I fear possible failure
won't float me to the clouds
coherently