Fading away

Fading away to nothing but dust
Slowly sliding down that hole
That never ends
I can see the way the sky bends
I feel my heart dying
Shrinking
Becoming cold
I realize I’m dying mentally and physically
Wanting it all to end
Its not pretend
You look at me
You see a smile
I see a girl dying inside
You see happy
I see pain
You see strong
And I see someone who is weak
You see beauty
I see the ugly truth
The pain is taking over my body
I cant even sit calmly
Without pain
I’d be free
But that is the day I can never see.