Dissatisfied

My mind begged to let thoughts of you in
I told it "no, that won't be happening"
It wanted to let imagination run wild
Taking you in my arms and holding you for a while
But my answer remained the same
Those thoughts were not welcome
It forced my eyes to cry
Tried its hand at tearful pleas
Still they went ignored like before
'Just go to sleep' I said
'I don't care how alone you feel
Being closer is not the answer
Until it becomes less of a question
We just can't feel that way right now'

I felt the anger swell up
And I was sure that inner voice would yell
Instead it took over me
Grabbing complete control of me
It demanded me to action
Without my direct consent
And made me imagine what it would be like
If your body was next to mine
How you'd take me then and there
Any way that you desired
And how I'd give in to impulse
Absorbing all I could get
Attraction too irresistible to fight
Feeling you inside while I hold you tight
Instilling belief that just maybe
I could have at all, at least right now

Violently I placed my hands
On parts of my body exclusively reserved for you
And I felt your touch
As if our hands were linked for that moment in time
Your explorations caused sensations
That only furthered my need for your filling
Urgency got the best of me and
I lost myself to your demonstrations of passion
I ended up in moments of time
Where I knew you'd want me more than this
I your only object of focus
Shared space complete distraction
And oh how good it felt
To be in a world of mutual enjoyment

My face did shine briefly
Glowing from all that being with you can reveal
Then the comedown hit me
And I realized this high was temporary
As a result I found myself
Wearing nothing but juices mental induced
Exposed but still empty
Satisfaction only lasts when it's real