Maintenance

Every system needs maintenance
My heart is no exception
If touch-ups aren't performed
The easier it will break
It beats at steady rhythm
But that doesn't mean it's fine
Feelings get stuck inside
With no way of release
Worry can clog the pathway
Overthinking can block the mind
Insecurity distorts view
Stability presents itself in ice
Sometimes I fall for the cold facade
As if it will save me somehow
But the heavy bricks of pain
At the end still remain
I search for feel-good smiles
But they're lost within the depths of me
I've no choice but to unravel
Myself internally
I pull my heart apart
Beat by painful beat
Extracting icy blood
That's been flowing through my veins
Melting as it pours
Messing up the floor
Feeling like I could slip
But this is how to maintain grip
I hold onto reality
And pull myself up from the past
I can walk towards the present
If I just trust and believe in future
I can cry my way to comfort
If that's what I think I need
Happiness is on the other side
And it's waiting for me to touch
I have the strength to get there
I am not one for defeat
It doesn't matter how I do it
I can swim or use my feet
Defeat may try to tempt me
Every time we meet
But I will always say goodbye
Because I know darkness isn't sweet
And it can talk as loud as it wants
I'll even listen to its speech
I may hit some lower levels
But that's not one that I'll reach
I just need to remind myself what's real
To allow myself to completely feel
And then I know I'll be okay
Once I learn all there is to gain
So when you need to release the tension
Just start with some reflection
Your inner floods will give direction
It's the best kind of intervention
Sometimes systems do overload
And we're not always conscious of the bloat
So remember to perform regular maintenance tasks
To help keep heart and mind traveling down good paths