I wish you only love and light....

I don't lie to you.
Why do you lie to me?
I give you everything I possibly can.
Why do you take it all and ask for more?
I try to teach by example.
Do you not see what I do?
Do you just not care for the lesson?
I thought I was something to you.
Turns out. I was only temporary.
I know I asked you one simple thing.
I asked you to not hurt me.
So what is it that you do?
Exactly what I begged you not to do.
It's alright. You were already forgiven.
I just need to vent.
Invent a reality.
My own, where I am treated with respect and love.
Even if it is make believe, it still is better than the world in which I was taken for my love and innocence once again.
It is my fault for not seeing the truth, the truth has always been what I sought.
Always seeming to elude me at the very same time.
I am so wise and insightful, except when it comes to myself, and what is best for my own love.
I know my love is unconditional, however it is so hard to share with others, because once given...
There is no going back. Unconditional means you can do whatever you feel like and I still love you.
You have not earned that. Not many have. So few, I can only think of two.
Neither of which are you.
I do wish you the best this life of chaos and magick
can offer you.
That is after all, what you seek. Materialistic and psychic energies.  
No more can I feel you inside of me.
My head, my solar plexuses, nor my body.
It wasn't enough to satisfy your lust for yourself.
I would love to meet the person that will be able to
satisfy and be satisfied with who you are, and who you portray yourself to be.
Why I ever tried to be more than just a teacher to you I don't understand myself.
I was so hopeful and I wanted to believe in a person so badly.
I chose the wrong one. Twice. Thrice.
This is how I know I will not be the who does the choosing.
I choose to be myself. I AM
Good luck to you, the lost. You lost all you thought you ever gained. I promise.
You will not be able to continue to use people like me.
I am the only one like me, or wait I forgot. This you  
do not see.
At least one of us does, and I see we were never meant to be.
Now you are so close to having made me an enemy.
All because You are a little child who likes to make souls like me feel empty like you do.
But I do not feel empty. I feel rage, and retribution is my friend. You not only fucked me, you fucked yourself over royally.
To the one who calls himself the Grey one, you are not your own, especially since everything you think you understand, and know is worth nothing since you never learned the lessons on your own.
Because you misuse and lie to those who were trying to take you to a higher level of living.
Instead you chose to deceive and make the one who Is I AM in the form of a woman-- hurt and step on herself.
What I have learned from you is that I am worth more than lying thieving ticks.
So you go now, forth and spread your filth, just as you try. I can never see you in the same light.
Good bye lover, deceiver, brother and son. May the
light become a part of your life once again.
**I am**