Losing it

I dont know what Im doing.
I dont know how to navigate these choices.

I feel like imploding.
I cant live without knowing.

I must have been so very wrong,
to miss you this much.
I cant wait this long.

But I was right about this crippling effect you have on me,
Why cant I just let it be?

Looking at your pictures,
listening to music that brings you to the front of my mind.
Anything to feel connected while I wait for this to die.