I Wasn't Enough

I always wondered why I wasn't worth getting to know-
Can't understand how a father wouldn't want to watch his only daughter grow-
After all this time you never sent one birthday card-
I'm so damaged that I can't trust anyone because I'm too scared to let down my gaurd-
It hurt that the only thing I ever knew about you was that your name was "Lee"-
Hurt even worse knowing that if you ever saw me, you wouldn't even recognize me-
Did you know that you're the reason I cried myself to sleep every night-
Did you care if I was hurt or if I even turned out alright-
I spent everyday feeling guilty thinking maybe I wasn't good enough-
Never let anyone see my tears, lived life pretending to be tough-
You missed every tooth I lost, every inch I grew, and every knee I scraped-
Where were you all the times I fell, where were you the day I was raped-
I'll never know what it woulda been like or what kinda life I woulda had-
Never know why you didn't love me, or why you didn't wanna be my dad-