Decisions

They stare at you with cold dead eyes
Never allowing you to have an opinion
They assume your truth is just more lies
They yell at your choices, at your decisions
They force you to say this, do that
Play the role of the perfect child
"Your too skinny, your too fat,
Your too loud, your too wild."
Everything you do is never enough
They push you for better, push for perfect
I know that your life is too rough
In school your treated like a reject
You sit alone, softly crying
wishing that someone would come and stay
You tell you need help, They say your lying
Insults behind your back: Fat, stupid, gay
What would they think if you were gone?
If you just stop existing?
Your alone in your room, holding your fathers gun
Your painful memories silently insisting
Take a breath, pull the trigger
You can't. something is stopping you, what?
Think of life's possibilities that you've never considered
You continue life, always keeping your mouth shut
Never showing your true emotions
Hiding everything you've ever felt
No one knows inside your broken
Never seeing the pain they've dealt
More hurtful words are whipped at you
Everyone expects you to be perfectly okay
You have a decision now, what are you going to do?
Going to use that gun to slip away?
Yes. This time you promise yourself you will.
Your alone in your room again
Holding the gun again sends you a chill
But you need to relieve all your pain
Put the muzzle to your head
One more deep breath, is this really what you want?
You know not a single tear will be shed
If you continue your actions will haunt
"Pull the trigger! Do it you Coward!"
Your fingers tremble, mind is racing
You flex your finger, ever so slightly
You've made your decision.
BANG!