There's a Ray

I thought I was finished
I thought I was done
Just holding on
To an image of your perfection
I thought I was cast off
And the devil had me
I was fading away
And I thought you left me
I could see
In my body
Into another world
I watched this war
Inside my body
Two liquids
One of white that was strong and true
Going head on slow and compermising not
One of darkness
That was weak
It twist around the light
And tried to ensnare it
I thought this black was winning
Making great ground
And I could not see the light
So I held on
Thinking I am lost
It's only a matter of time
But no I sent a cry for help
I wept and went to the holy Sprit
I told it of my wickedness
I told in in secret in fear
I didn't want Jesus
I couldn't bare the though
For as God saw the fig leafs
On Aden and Eve
He would see the spots
The stains
All over what was once white
I know it would hurt him
To ask him again
To make me white
And the Sprit led me to him
So I wept in bed
He held me
And started taking it away
Oh how awicked and sinful am I
But he didn't say that
I believed in him
And he cast his love on me
Tears still come to me
When I think of this
Perhaps it will soon be better
The evil is in the open
And I am weak and broken
And how he loves me
Weak and broken
When I have no where
Nothing left
Nothing but suffering and pain and sin
A broken heart
With wrinkled and stained and dirty robes
And I fall before him in tears
Begging
He know I am his
I know his voice
And it calls me home
He fixes my robe
But I don't want to be fixed
It fills my heart with tears of joy
To be broken to him
For he sees me weak
And he takes away evil
And fills it with him
He builds each part anew
Tearing down this old
Ugly
Shack
And he builds it with strong walls
And all the best
Becuse he loves me
And I hate these evil seasons
Where I sin
And my flesh currupts me
And I fall down
But I love when I go home
Broken and holding on
Becuse there is a place
Not so far away
Where my master is perfect
In every way
And he takes me in
And gives me the best
And deep in my heart
There is a ray
A ray of belief
That its all going to work out
And I will remain here
In my ture home
With my master
For eturnity