Goodbye

I know no one will read this
So I can write what I feel
And I don't have to worry
About what someone would think.

I've been feeling pretty stressed
And sometimes I'm very sad
It's quite pathetic really
I often think I'm stupid.

I really have no idea
What I want to do in life
The constant uncertainty
It feels like it's drowning me.

I'm like a piece of driftwood
Floating along with no path
Through the sea of fear and doubt
Battered by anxiety.

I see all my friends succeed
They have their own separate lives
Everything already planned
No questions about what's next.

Seeing my importance shrink
As they come by less and less
They all become too busy
To stop by and say hello.

Don't think I'm angry at them
I'm very happy for them
I want them to follow through
And achieve their highest goals.

It's just that I sometimes wish
My heart didn't hurt so much
Seeing them stop hanging out
And all slowly drift away.


I won't say anything though
I don't want to bother them
And interrupt their success
I won't be a distraction.

I won't put up a fight
I'll let them do what they want
And I'll keep smiling for them
As I slowly fade away.