Dissonance

It clouds my thoughts
yet enlightens my understanding.
It influences my decisions
                                pulls at my emotions
                                            brings me up for that small duration.  

My soul feeds off that better feeling condition.
I live to hear that chorus pulsing in my mind
To hear that melody coursing through my blood
To feel that beat pounding in my ears
                               rebounding as my surroundings melt in front of me
            leaving me with only the sound of this         beauty.  
To feel those lyrics lift my spirit up
            inspiring me to never reach my peak,
                                          rather
                                                go further than I’m capable.
To feel that shiver
                   down my spine
                           as the final note is played and I am complete with a smile.

I’m an aspiring addict
                                                                           “band geek” has been in my title since fifth grade.
                                                               headphones are branched from my ears as if they were a part of my body.
                                                                 lyrics and rhymes are constantly bouncing around in my brain ready to escape
                                                          their confinement and be put to a beat.
                                      harmonies eventually pump from my heart more than blood itself.

All day I think of that harmony running through my veins: that sweet, numbing satisfaction of relief.  I lay down on my bed, the lights are dim and the whole world fades away and I finally reach that resolved high.