Additional Emotions

Additional Emotions

Do you recall the fire of your emotion when you were expecting me to visit you. The frustration of a visit cancelled how you felt so let down and angry. You didn’t always control events and that was a wake up call.

Did I ever tell how I felt about missing a chance to see you. I felt blackened inside a dull thud in my chest something deep inside me felt wrong. I was not where I wanted to be I was missing the excitement of being with you.

Time with you was life as I wanted it, time without you felt futile. I had no idea where we were going but then again neither did you. The only thing I did know was that I trusted you completely and that you trusted me explicitly.  At first I did know what to do with the sense of power that I felt. It took a long time to understand the power I had over you and realise the power you had over me.

At its simplest level I asked you to obey me without question to obey my wishes and submit to me. I wanted and still want to experience your submission to me to do as I ask without challenging me. I want to see you living your life to satisfy me and fulfil me needs. I want to share your thoughts and desires to hear what you say and listen to what want.

I am your man and I want my woman to feel fulfilled and desired. You complete me and make my life worth waking up for. You are in the forefront of my mind from the second I awake. Your presence is embedded deep with me and I often take comfort in situations in imaging you are sitting right next to me.

Sometimes I may take my eye of the ball, recently I have done this as I have become defocused and distracted from the goals which we both aspire to. The truth is I have become weary and to concerned about present problems rather than keeping fast to our future plans.