what the fuck is this

i have broken all of my rules
i said i wouldnt like u
for the fear of being hurt
and now slowly
i try and open up
but baby u will leave
im scared
because i feel like if u do
it will hurt a millions worse
then the others
i wanted you
i wanted i don't know what
knowing i was ready
i took this leap
broken ever rule
and now i fear the thought of us drifting
but its been one day
not even a full 24 hours
why do i feel this way
what happens when u dont want me
then what
we are so alike
i finish your sentences
we joke around
i can be my true self with you
but how can we do this
how can u taste me
make me feel this way
when he made me feel this way
in months?
i do not understand
i don't wanna say i love you
because it could just be lust
but fuck baby
what ever this is....
i do not want it to stop....

xoxo almost lover