Sharp Steel

This pain,
It drives me crazy.
I miss your touch,
the way you'd hold me.
I find solace in metal,
Sharp steel.
As it cuts through my skin,
Through my veins,
I feel in control again.
I feel calm.
This razor will never leave me,
Its my only companion.
This world,
It is so cruel.
It just takes one cut to end it all,
One cut I do not dare.
My wounds leave scars,
Scars others can't see.
Scars that others won't care about.
This pain,
Its so strong.
It beats me into nothing,
It controls me,
Hurts me,
Kills me.
But I wouldn't wish this on anybody,
Not even to save myself.