Priorities

There's a lot on my mind...feeling overwhelmed from it all...I keep trying to get ahead..but behind is where I fall...time and time again...it's a never ending battle...trying not to spend... is something hard to tackle...daily habits, needs, and wants.. seem to be my issue...but life sucks and those things seem to help me get thru...I guess that's what living life like a dick eventually gets you...but I know what I must do in order to eradicate myself from suffering the wrath of past mistakes...I gotta spend less money n only get half as baked...when my hungry ass passes the sweets in the store... I gotta resist the temptation to grab a cake...bottom line I gotta learn to put more than half away so by the time I pass away my kids and wife can be glad to say that dad and bae held us down because he found a way to get off the ground in the most profound of ways...that's what I want those around to say once I'm not around one day...I want them to be proud of the ground I paved when I leave this life...I never want my loved ones to grieve or have to endure those sleepless nights all because dad led a meaningless life...I want this so much that when I post this...I won't just be reading it twice...I'm gonna read in the morning...I'm gonna read it at night...I'm gonna continue reading it until I can read it using the gleam in my ice...