I am not strong

I'm not strong like people think I am.
I break apart just as easily as everyone else.
I cry myself to sleep every night.
I let the stupidest things get to me
I get jealous at the most unreasonable times.
Oh boy do I get angry.
I let people get to me.
I am not strong.
I try.
I honestly do but at times you have to cry.
You have to fall to truly cherish the happy times.
It's okay
Too fall
Too break
Too cry
Too smile
Even the best fall down sometimes
And those words are the words I live by
They somehow fall together so perfectly
Like a rapid stream flowing through a mountain covered with curves
Falling as if I am autumn leaves
Crying as if I am a storm hoping to never run out of rain
Breaking as if I am a tree being cut down by blades
Smiling as if I have never been hurt at all
But I am not strong.
No I am not strong.
I break down sometimes.
And hide it all behind a smile.
I am not strong.
I am a good actor
A liar
What filth I am
Simply trash being blown with the wind
Take me away
Oh how I want to leave