Veiled weep

There’s a lot of pain in the world,
And yet it found me.
You’ll say I can’t complain,
but it’s attacking my family.

Members are missing -
Not likely to come back.
What’s left feels weak;
they were prepared with their attack.

At first I didn’t know who to blame,
I felt alone and discarded.
But I decided to fight alone;
Silent cries and heavy hearted

It hurt at first,
Though I guess I grew from it;
Developed as a person,
and benefited.

We’ll get them back.
I’ll stop hurting.
Regain focus on personal priorities;
Get my self back on track.

I’ll start to feel again,
Or at least I’ll try –
they’ve destroyed me for long enough now
I’ll grow inside.

I’ve been offered help in ample supplies,
it’s fully appreciated –
but this is my task,
my reaction’s left me pathetic and humiliated.

I’m not good at reaching out –
maybe this is a veiled attempt?
I’m scared people’s opinions of me will be changed –
towards me they'll feel contempt.

However unlikely the journey may seem
I’ll travel it safely;
end this nightmare,
and start a new dream.