What Can I Say?!

      I've lied and cried  
          these lines deep inside  
     and out my mind a
 a million times
        
          Just Realize these words
   are not only mine left in  
 disguise  
    
      Committed suicide with
           needles that cut and bleed  
                    marked with scares
 
   Grew tired with all this  
       time
           Mute, deaf I don't want to  
    see this fucked up life  
   up for me
 
            I find it may be so selfish of
  this way I think do and feel
 
 
                   Earth beneath me crumbled and
         crumbles in this time
    with this place  
  
 So what's left for me
        that I could say  
    
          constantly be in this way  
I could only feel