Restore

so here i am again
fighting for my right to feel
shaking in the freezing cold
and every vibration seeming frozen
dormant
maybe i should stand
shake off the frost
and stand by the fire to warm
so that i can be free again
my head has felt heavy lately  
my heart sunk like a stone
in the cold waters
of a lake as still as the water in my glass
im afraid i might drown
my house holds a negative vibe
but should it really matter
its time to take action
to stand and free my head again
to rescue my own heart from the disparical depths
the winter in my soul melts when i will it to
the vibrations return when i call them
i can free myself from the stress with in
with one slow toke of my vape
i can contemplate the universe
when in a grip of a stone and the touch of a hand
i can feel the life force again
i can free myself again
unlocking the locks that were unlocked before
only i hold the key to my own soul
only i can free my own hand that holds me back
only i can will myself to the warmth i so long for
with a little support from my fam
and a help from lucy
i can be free again