Just stopped trying

Why keep listening to all the lies
Trying to find where you belong
Tired of hearing all the cries
What did I do so very wrong
Grab my blade and start it deep
Slowly dripping the red pleasure
I close my eyes to go to sleep
My fantasies are my only treasure
Alone again I cry out dying
So Again I'll just stop trying
No one hears my bloody screams
I am only loved in my dreams