Revelations Of Self

Life...
Comes bleeding into me
Filling me with emotions
I'd rather not feel

Transfusing my logic
and my soul into this
Living breathing....Enigma

Forcing me to see...
What I don't want to see

Forcing me to acknowledge
what refuses to now stay hidden

Like Jason Vorhees...refusing
to stay dead...
So goes these emotions in my soul

Fast chants as water pours over me
In my shower...

eyes closed soul exposed seeking
Spiritual Power

As Revelation Knowledge comes
Leaving me winded, and numb

Truth Is..
I can never run from who I really am

No Matter...
What it is  I find out about myself
The good...
The bad...
The ugly...
Its All Me
I can either embrace it
then tweak certain areas
OR...
I can keep hiding from myself
throwing myself into

One Panic attack
After another
Or One Anxiety Attack
after another...

In Order to accept  my whole self
I have to be willing to accept
My darker self as well as My Light

It doesn't mean I am evil..
Or wicked...
It simply means that I am
A supernatural Soul...
Wrapped inside the Human Condition...

Now that I see all my  parts...

I am resolute in believing
Change...can now be made.