Love Apathy

There is an empty feeling    
the moment I realize
    
This might be the most alone    
I have ever been.    
   
Sometimes I shutdown    
yell    
       Stop!    
    
I could write you    
express my love in abstractions.    
   
Does it matter?    
Would you care?    
   
The memories that hurt are the ones I can't forget,
and the last words you said...
   
"How can you love someone who is mean to you.    
 I will never understand it"