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This Love

This love was going under.
This love almost ended.

between you & me. . .

Our arguements--
Our tears--
Our scars--

Venomous words.
Being flung back & forth.

between you & me. . .

Constantly yelling at me.
Constantly walking out on each other.

You leaving me.
Me telling you to go.

We pushed each other away.
We pushed each other to our limits.

Making the other chose--
What we love?
Or who we love?

You ignored me.
My passion started to control our life.

I became the monster I've feared most of my life.

This love. . .

This love grew from a bruise.
I came into this relationship.
After leaving another one behind.

I wasn't ready but you took me in anyway.
You held me as I destroyed myself over someone else.
You kissed my cuts.
You wiped my tears.
You took my punches.

And all I did was give you heartache.
Take you away from your family.
Make you a father when you weren't ready.
Made you move in with me.
Got you to drop out of school.
Refuse to let you get a job.

I control your every waking moment.
Your every move--
Your every breath--

I was suffocating you.
I realize that now.
I held on too tight to you.
And I almost lost you.

I almost lost this love. . .

This love. . .

This love that I dreamt of when I was chained to another.
This love that saved me from myself.

I almost lost this love.

This love that comforted my tears.
This love that healed my cuts.

This love that I broke my own heart to taste.

This love is good--
This love is bad--

This love was dead, in my hands.
This love was revived, in front of my eyes.

You saved me.
From her--
From being alone--
From myself--

You saved me with this love.
And I almost let it go.
We almost let it go.

We'd kiss, share I love you's one minte.
And be arguing with each other the next.
You'd be leaving me again.
And I'd be falling to my knees.
My heart breaking, tears running down my cheeks.

We'd say we were sorry.
But neither of us ever meant it.
It was all pretend.
We were ghosts of who we use to be.

And so was this love.
This love we shared.
We nurtured together.
We cared for each other.

And it hurts to know how close we were to losing it.

This love is my favorite song.
This love is my favorite dream.
This love is my only passion.

I took this love for granted.
I almost let it go.
I thought you wanted to go free.

But you said that you don't want to hate me.
That you don't want me to let you go.
This love almost slipped from my hands.

but we caught it, you and I. . .

You said you were sorry that you changed.
I said I was sorry that I became obsessed.

You held me and said you wanted to stay.

This love was going under.
This love almost ended.

This love almost died in my hands.

But it was revived before my eyes.

We admitted it, we almost lost it.

We almost lost this love.

I almost lost you.
You almost lost me.

but between you and I. . .

We brought our dead love back to life.
We let our emotions and thoughts lose.
Opening the Pandora's box deep inside of minds.
All of the bad emotions were set free.

And in turn, this love didn't leave.

Instead we saved it--

You and me. . .

This love is good.
This love is bad.
This love is alive.
This love was dead.
This love is bright.
This love is dark.
This love was almost lost at sea.

And now. . .

This love is all I need.