Antidepressants

Dark circles around my eyes.
I'm numb, too tired to think.
Probably drooling all over myself.
Eyes seemingly stuck in place, staring out the window.

Trying to talk my way out of this is no use.
There's no escaping it this time, I'm literally trapped.
Maybe this is what it feels like to be a cow before the slaughter.
I'd say that the wait itself is the worst part.

My hands are cold and sweaty, not as shaky as before.
My jaw hurts from clenching my teeth.
Back aches as well but at least it's tolerable.
Goosebumps cover the skin on my arms.

Losing bits and pieces of myself on the way.
Creativity leaking out of my very soul, my future goes down the drain.
I suppose individuality is just an after thought.
Being yourself isn't on the agenda for today.
Never ever be anything but unpleasantly happy.