I won't listen until I do .....

She's gone
Left this earth
Fought the battle
Went quietly
A little morphine
To speed her path

There are messages
On the voice mail
Ones I saved along the way
Knowing this day would come

Can't listen yet
Maybe in time
Knowing they are there
Gives me comfort
In a morbid kind of way

She was mostly good
Lived by a code
Did things the right way
Old school if you will

A day will come
When I go to the well
Not now though
The earth is still wet
I'm not ready to take the plunge

I wish you had known her
Pragmatic, classy and wise
One day I will listen
Not now though but soon ...