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Heartache
Expectation is truely the root of all heartache.
I promised myself to live by this quote by one of my favorite writers.
Get tattooed on my person one day, as a constant reminded of what I should always remember.
But their whispers--
And their constant reminder of my birthday--
The things they were going to do--
I just expected--
I know I said I wouldn't.
But I did anyway--
And here I am trying to hold back the heartache.
At 6:32am on November 26th I'll be 21 years old.
And it will be my birthday.
And there will be nothing to show.
But a cake that I was already aware I was going to get.
I shouldn't have expected more.
It's the end of the month after all.
And I already got the 1989 CD.
Why did I expect to get more?
They just made it seem like they were planning something BIG.
What a let down. . .
What a heartbreak. . .
And hello, here comes the heartache.
I guess I should learn that's what I should expect.
I promised myself to live by this quote by one of my favorite writers.
Get tattooed on my person one day, as a constant reminded of what I should always remember.
But their whispers--
And their constant reminder of my birthday--
The things they were going to do--
I just expected--
I know I said I wouldn't.
But I did anyway--
And here I am trying to hold back the heartache.
At 6:32am on November 26th I'll be 21 years old.
And it will be my birthday.
And there will be nothing to show.
But a cake that I was already aware I was going to get.
I shouldn't have expected more.
It's the end of the month after all.
And I already got the 1989 CD.
Why did I expect to get more?
They just made it seem like they were planning something BIG.
What a let down. . .
What a heartbreak. . .
And hello, here comes the heartache.
I guess I should learn that's what I should expect.
Published 26th Nov 2014
| Edited 14th Sep 2017
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26th Nov 2014 12:24pm
Hey girl!You turning 21!That all together is enough reason for you to celebrate!So what if your own expectations failed or disappointed you?!You have made it this far,its enough reason to be happy!
Celebrate yourself girl!
Happy birthday!!!
Celebrate yourself girl!
Happy birthday!!!
28th Nov 2014 9:53am
Thank you, for the comment and the happy birthday. Everything worked out, this was just how I was feeling when I got the inital shock of disappointment. But my boyfriend and mom came through after all and it was a very good birthday.
- Paige Rider
- Paige Rider
