I Don't Bite

I'm so afraid

and it feels like recently
that's it

no one wants to hurt me
because no one cares
I cant cry
since I can barely think

there's blurs
then there's blood
then there's emptiness to follow

this is fucking hollow


I only want to sleep
I'm scared of anything that isn't my own
but my thoughts are scary
distorting my face

I'll do tomorrow
and the days after
but I can't promise
to live
since I don't feel cuts anymore
and I can't feel myself mutating
or have I already mutated
into
something I no longer recognise

I have really pretty eyes
but they lie
so I want
to shut them

except I have to stare at them every morning
and look at myself
and think hard enough
to convince myself
that I'm broken and that's the reason.