Open Wide

giving your body enough water  
is as equally important as giving it enough rest  
but if the only time you feel alive  
and the only time you feel free  
is the time when the world around you  
seems to take a sigh of relief  
does it really matter?  
does being in a paralysed state of half conciousness,  
hold any water?  
 
i feel a hypnogogic sensation  
when i am submerged into the nights independence  
i........ i do not have the words to describe it,  
the clearness of the blindness,  
you make sense of it  
of this and that  
possiblity, and facts  
you could react or do nothing  
the night has no pressure  
the night is comforting.  
 
I suppose in some sence, its better to be asleep  
because when you sleep  
you dream  
you are not pondering  
your thoughts laying in bed at night  
could drag you down a bumpy line  
when you sleep, you pause the pain  
your body relaxes, the one time in your life  
you are allowed to be weak.  
 
But i would rather take the risk!  
a small taste of the nights passion  
could last me weeks  
i dont like my thoughts  
but i wont sleep  
i simply love  
allowing myself to breath in the cool air  
so invigorating  
i am it,  
it is me.  
 
kurara is not worth it