Scream

I have to scream
Scream and scream and scream until my voice is nothing
Scream until my lips bleed the way my heart does

I have cordoned off this reality
Like it does not exist at all
And I perpetuate this
By hiding the truth

I work and work and work
And wait for the reality of life
To go away

I lie
You ask me how I am
And I lie

It went well
I’m fine

Say fucking what

I don’t have to go through this alone
But I can’t bear for them to know
I don’t think I could handle the crying

I tried to tell them
I swear I did
But the panic in their voices
Made my throat close up
And the lie just came through my lips
As if that was all I was ever going to say