chlorine

procrastination
the worst thing to be good at
ruined them
dissolving my BPD mind
all my life
i tried everything not to be one of them
as much as i dug into the concrete ground
i couldnt escape the reality
something so plain and clear
glowing crystaline
denial
im crazy
not crazy as in wild, confident, flamboyant, vibrant
crazy as in Boderline, Schizoid, Schizotypal, Paranoid
i must say im not suprised

i might just turn worse like them
turn into an abused broken record
no more hiding
time to lift my head above water
and deal with the sting