new

youre new to this arnt you
this whole happiness deal
youre not sure if its okay yet
youre not certain how to act
i can see you falling back
falling back into old habits
its like a drug
the pain the heartache
why do you crave it?
are you a masochist or something?
i dont understand it
neither do you
do you.
youd rather the comfort of misery
than the strange new feeling of a smile
youre pathetic  
youre not
it takes time to be happy
shut up goody goody
youre pathetic and you know it
its your fault you're like this
its your fault, just like everything else
you cant even keep yourself happy
what good are you
lots of good...
but not to anyone you know.
not to the world.
youll be good
when youre
fucking
dead.