I Wish I Hated You

I had lost all hope in relationships
Everyone with the wrong person
Divorce ratings higher then ever
But then you came in to my life
Everything changed, my whole outlook on life was different
But then you left me like I didn't mean anything to you
You said you didn't feel anything when we first kissed
But now I'm feeling like there's a knife in my chest
The handle gets twisted every time I think about you
I try to run away
But my memories of you play over and over in my head
I try to get my mind off of you
But every girl my eyes fall upon, I just see your face
I lay in bed at night, with nothing on my mind but you
I thought my feelings for you could be cast aside easily
Just like I could do with the girls of my past
But my feelings for you grow stronger every waking hour
I want you more then I desire to breathe, desire to eat, desire to sleep, desire to live
I want you more then anything
But you're the one thing I can't have
You changed my life so quickly, but you walked out of my life even quicker
I tell myself we wouldn't have worked out anyway
But maybe I don't want to forget about you
Because if I do I'm just acknowledging the fact that I will never be with you again
Maybe I'm just fooling myself to soften the blow
Planting lies in my own head so it'll be easier to move on
I wish I just hated you
It would be easier to move past all of your memories
Move past the feelings you gave me that no one else could
Yes, it would be easier to hate you
Instead, I think I just love you...