I must break free

Once upon a time, Love was the source of my light.
but then Love left me and broke my spirit.
When my spirit broke, it ceased being the light and became darkness
Now darkness has manifested itself as the Shadow of my despair.
 
Last week that Shadow hath descended upon our house.  
Its malignant despair has infiltrated our home and taken root.
The happy home of my children communing together in harmony has been dispersed.
When they get home from school, they vanish into the safety of their rooms.
With doors closed, the Shadow is kept at bay.
 
Our home is now quiet, so deathly quiet.  
There is no conversation to be heard.  
No laughter.  
No joy.
I feel so down, my mood beyond blue, it's pitch black.
 
Cold, so very cold.
For even hope has gone away.
And I find myself so alone.
Full of despair each and every day.
 
I would want someone to help me, if I thought someone could.
But I know, no one is coming, I know no one would.
I am alone tonight, as I will be tomorrow.
As that Shadow tightens its grip upon me.
 
I must break free from this Shadow  
though it pulls me down
I must break free from this Shadow  
but it keeps me down
 
I can't push back the darkness, it takes too much energy,
So I give in to the Shadow and the cold all consuming.
I am lost
 
 
Morning hath come.
I survived the night.
Why am I cursed to live another day?
Have I not seen enough darkness?
Have I not felt enough despair?
O' I am so tired of this life, but I must get up and make the best this miserable day.
 
Arise and awaken beneath the blast of a hot morning shower.
The water stings my flesh, but still I feel the cold in my bones of a life passed me by.
Put on a happy face, a smile for the family.
 
Bury my frustration, hide away desperation.
Wish them good morning; even though in my heart I know it is a lie.
 
To work do I go, sit down at my desk.
Stare into the keyboard, I know what needs doing, but the thoughts are all scrambled.
Think straight not this day, this week, not at all.
 
I am too over stressed.
I need a break from this life, it's too much, I can't stand it.
 
I must break free from this Shadow  
though it pulls me down
I must break free from this Shadow  
but it keeps me down
 
I cannot hold back the Shadow, I cannot find the light, it takes too much energy,
So I give in to the Shadow and let it take me again.
I am lost.