~Pain~

I used to cut
And I used to bleed
But now I have memories
And that's all I need

Every time I believe
When you say you're coming back
I always hold my breath
Until my vision turns to black

I deserve your anger
I deserve your pain
I couldn't help you
So I am the one to blame

When blood drips down my wrist
I feel my heart begin to race
My veins pound and stretch
A feeling of man-made grace

I suppose I am addicted
To this sadness that you bring
When I dare to remember you
I'm left with a buzz of your sting

I thought I had you
My one remaining friend
Now that you've left me
My life is coming to an end

The cuts don't bleed enough
The memories aren't agonizing
The possibility of a burning bullet
To me, seems tantalizing

Maybe I'll end it all
A bullet to silence the pain
The empty bottles and scars
All gone in vain

Now I've decided
This letter, you cannot return
Because this is the last bridge
And it has begun to burn