wishing

When i walk out of my head i see suffering around me
there always Little voice that says don't let go just dont let go  i listin to it every time i need to forget my past but every time i try to more memories pop up so i don't try any more
my friends  rises me up but i fall right back  down
its hard to fall down right in front of your friends
I wish that i can care about myself  like others do
i wish that i could think correctly but wishing is a lie that your parents made up so you can have false hope
my depression is getting worse
i can't see happiness any more
i can't cry because i ran of tears
i can’t buy any more there to expends of
but the worse part is i can't have happiness
I start bleeding out
now i starting see a bright ball of light.