Am i better off a quitta?

https://soundcloud.com/bradley-j-3/the-script-nothing-remix-lyrics-and-performance-by-figure-b-prod-by-csc
 
To be honest,
It feels good to be alive,
not at my strongest right now but i'll survive,
Red eyes as i accept the lies that unwind you and I,
but right now I gotta take a scenic drive,  
pass-by the places where our worlds collided,
Remind myself of a time when i was not blinded,
desensitized, or have to improvise a goodbye,
I wish i could forget the reply that you supplied,
Confined by questions of why,
and cant describe or justify the feelings fleeting inside.
 
CHORUS  
 
I was selfish I admit,
We had interests in conflict,
And i was afraid to commit,
but you could never forgive what you did not permit,
we put each other through some shit,
How could i not predict  it woulds ended like this?
i wanted an accomplice,
instead I got whipped but I wouldn't end up your accomplishment,
i tossed the script and split in search of where i fit,
We couldn't be tolerant of the nonsense that comes with finding love  in college,
But now we are better equipped,
Cuz of this knowledge I don't regret calling it quits.
 
CHORUS
 
It's funny how the little things linger,
wondering how i'll make it through this winter,
beyond the point that i miss her,
Wondering Why there have to be a winner?
decided by passive-aggressive communication on twitter,
The taste has turned bitter,  
I remember days all we did was bicker as we damaged our livers,
My life I reconfigured,
Now in my sobriety I figure,
our history seems more of a dream than reality that actually happened to me,  
I can't believe I was so naive,
 
inspiration provided by a remix to The Script's song 'Nothing" created by CSC: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KVbazzIas94