Monster

Dear God could you make me a monster?
Let me be a monster a for a day
Half my heart and make me whole
Let me be one of my two parts
If not the girl the monster
God you let me be broken by this world
My heart can't take much more
I am so tired of people walking out the door
So make me a monster my dear lord
Turn my skin blue and my lips black
Rip me apart and repair my broken heart
Make me a girl or make me a monster
But i cannot longer stand being half of both
Boys want a girl and my family needs a monster
I can't be both, not anymore, not like this
God hold me close to you as my heart heals
but i am asking that you take on mercy
And make me stronger then the average girl